Insanity

I suddenly remember Ben's friend. I was cooking at Ben's apartment that time while he said "Pede ka na magsawa." And I immediately flipped out. Come on dude! It doesn't mean when girls knows how to do household chores means they can be housewives. We were taught to do chores because we have to, not because we have to serve our husbands. I do not disagree about getting married, but the fact that since we know how to do chores, then we can be a wife. That's insanity. That's bullsh*t. Then he follows "Syempre kaming mga lalake yung nagtatrabaho. Kaya kami dapat yung pinagsisilbihan."  What the fvck? Are you kidding me? I didn't reply. My silence means a lot. I was so mad. I was taught not to talk if you can't say anything good. I might say something, so I just remained silent. But he's an assh*le! Are you serious? That's how you see your mom doing all the work in the house? Because your dad is the one who's working? How about working moms? Aren't they deserve any recognition? Ugh!!! I really hate it. Sometimes I don't want to get married because of this insanity. People! Grow up!

Ben

Ben and I never cut off our communication since I got here. We always texted each other, online chatting and sometimes phone calls. I never imagined that we will go this far (Who does?). He's a good man (sometimes pain in the ass), and I love him. :) One time we're changing text messages and the convo was kinda like this:

I: Gusto kong maging baladad.
B: Gusto ko din maging baladad ka.
I: Pag nagkababy tayo kulot din no?
B: Pag hindi yun kulot patay ka saken.
I: Hahaha. Ang cute mo!
B: Cute ka dyan! Kala mo nagbibiro ako.
I: Eh ang cute mo naman talaga eh.. Hihihi. :D
B: Muka mo.
I: Muka mo din! I love you.. Mahal mo ko?
B: I love you too.. Mahal na mahal kita.. Alam mo naman yun eh. mwah!



It's worth the wait. <3

Immigrant

Being from another country is really difficult. Now that I'm attending college it gets harder. I have to plan ahead of time and organize what I have to do. Money is my first issue. I need a lot of things for my classes and it's really stressful. At work, it's hard to mingle with co-workers especially when they're having their "jokes", I don't get it. Like seriously, I always have the "straight face" and wondering what's the funny part? It is hard. I'm doing my best. I am surviving. I have to. I need to. Ugh!

Missing Him. Always..

I've read my bestfriend's blog about her and his boyfriend. It's so cute. Like really. :) Especially when she took care of him.. I remember before I leave, Ben has a fever. It was actually the days that we know anytime soon I will leave. But it was the days that I don't want to be with him anymore. But I still love him. It won't change after all. Though galit ako, I went out from his apartment to look for some hot soup. I can't find any so I went to Chowking to buy some congee for his breakfast. (They don't have stove on their apartment that time so I have to look for some cooked food.) I bought bottled waters 'coz he needs water therapy and some paracetamol. I care for him even though I'm mad at him. Whatever happens he's Ben. He makes me so crazy. :) Yiiieee. So anyways, when I cam back I woke him up and I told him he have to eat something so he can take his medicine and then he can go back to sleep again. While we're eating he whispered and say "Thank you day... I love you..." I didn't answer. I was stunned. It was very rare to me. But I answered in my heart, "I love you too, but I hate you.." :)


We're still together. :) I don't know what will happen to us but I'm happy with him. I love him even sometimes he's being an asshole. :)

My Shortest haircut ever!

I loved it. I never knew what will it looks like if I haven't tried it. :) Finally I did it..

It was my hair before cutting it. :) Long.

After. :)

1hr 28 min

So I was so sad I felt that everything is screwed up. I called my best friend and we talked like what we used to. She's always on time whenever I need her. I cried and laugh and chat with gossips and problems. :) I love her. :)

Whatever Happens

It's been 2 years.. Well, more than 2 years.. Getting near to 3 since I started to date Ben. Everything was wonderful at first. Everything was great. But like any other relationships, there are lots of dramas and craps happened. But I'm still happy with him. I don't know if it's real love. All I know, whatever happens it's always him that makes me happy. :)